Monday, June 29, 2009
Mum talked to me.
I think i'm sucha disappointing daughter.
Yes, she very easily pointed out my major problem: my character.
Whatever I venture in, I'm half-hearted.
And always feel like giving up easily/give up in 2 mins.
I duno what is perserverance.
I cannot see the rainbow at the end.
I'm not willing to put in effort.
Whether school/work/relationship
I really dunno how.I also dunno y I'm so half-hearted.
Is there something wrong with me?
I find fault with everything?
I live in my own world too much?
I try too hard to be liked?
Too naive?
School:
I feel like giving up after i fail a subject.
Work:
I feel like quitting after I get scolding or bad comments from nasty customers/colleagues.
(I know i'm ridiculous, everybody gets scolded/bad days and they all bear with it instead of simply quitting like me.)
I'll never have a stable job, income, benefits.
So I'm constantly broke.
Relationship:
I feel like I ask for too much attention and stuff. And always create problems.
Nobody will be happy with me.
I need to wake up.
And transform myself.
I know I'm old, and I have responsibilities to shoulder.
I need to set a good example to my brother.
I know I should stop being so fragile.
I should learn to face this cruel world.
Nobody can protect me 24/7!
Teach me how to be strong someone!