Can you stop lifting me up into the sky, and then trashing my heart into pieces?

Yes, I'm mad.
And you're right when you always say : "You really don't understand me, don't know what I want."

Even when you're very sweet to me, I still can be sad.

I know the honeymoon period of a R/S doesn't last forever.

I know "who doesn't want their entire R/S to be blissful-sweet-love from courtship-dating-marriage-eternity?"

I know with sweet moments, comes arguments and fight and quarrels and disagreements.

I don't know how not to be petty.sensitive.critical.
I know you want me to stop thinking negative, and spare a thought for you.

You told me that you're more heartbroken that I always think the worst of you, in arguments.
Yes, how am I supposed to believe that you love me when I can't get over my own barrier?

That, your pride is more important then me.
Why do you refuse to believe my words?
I didn't accuse you.

I admit that I can't take being second place.

Yes, loving someone means loving my everything.
My family, my mum (thou she can be really fierce), my little things.

So I'm supposed to pscho myself, to love you and your pride too?

FEELINGS.
FEELINGS.
FEELINGS.

How many times did I mention that?
I know you've tried your best.

So I won't ask for more.
If this is your best, then I shld accept it?

But I'm sorry, I really can't bring myself to.
I can't stop being sensitive and petty.
Sorry I broke my promise.

Yes, everything is my fault.
I stirred up everything out of nothing.
I'm the one who stop our happiness.

Let me be.
Take it that you'll never be good enough for me.
Maybe that 'll make me feel better.

I can't win your pride.
And I'm heartbroken thou I'm smiling to you.

I know I'm too hard to understand and please.
So please stop being nice to me, pls find a more understanding girlfriend.

I'll be fine.

(Girls, if you all read this, I'll be fine, REALLY)

I just don't want to bottle things up and feel miserable.
Drowning your sorrows in alcohol helps.