Stop crying stupid tan lijun.
your tears are not your weapons.
and nobody cares even.


I wanted to give in my all-rush my assignment so i could spend quality time with you.
I know you feel the same.

You wanted to spend time with me,
but you forget you still have friends, family and personal errands.
I try not to be selfish or demanding and you know that.

But you were the eager one to give me hope.
-maybe u will come find me
-maybe you will be home
-maybe u'll come pick me
-maybe u'll be free for me
-maybe u 'll call me

Sorrys replace maybes.
and convert my happiness to disappoinment.

Why did you give me hope and crush it?
I know you already said sorry.
But stop expecting me to feel better immediately after your sorry.
I know i'm the one who said I'm fine.

Give me some time to get over it.
However stubborn or unreasonable if you think I'm.

I know u're worried about me, you do things with me in mind,
you didn't call cos it was too late
you were afraid I've fallen asleep,

I'm worried.
but afraid you find me irritating.
So I sometimes resort to stop contacting you, thinking u'll contact me when u r free.

I take the things you say seriously.
Perhaps with too much expectations?

Is that too much?

I must learn not to think too much.
Just let go.
I'll try to reduce my attention and care,
stop exposing myself bare to hurt.


Things are fine.
I know we both still love and worry for each other much.
But really.... it's not easy...

I'll still.. try harder.

I just needed to hear something nice.
Perhaps it'll never come from your bf at the time u need it most.
so that's what's girlfriends are for?

They say the things u wanna hear at the time u need it.

Just venting... so I can move on.
CONCENTRATE!!