Sighs.
Everyone's busy enjoying themself,
fabulous time counting down,
while I made a choice to stay home agn.

Maybe I'm really emo and unpredictable.
I'm sorry.
These few days I've been very anti-social.
I'm sorry for people who are very sweet to not forget me,
ask me out, include me in, but i rejected every single one.

Much as i wish to join my friends: clubbing, gawking at handsome guys, supper,
countdown, partying, gathering, movie date..

I feel very inferior and just can' t stand going out,
letting people comment or see the ugly and fat me.
So i just hide and it makes me feel safe.
It haunts me badly.I hope i can hide in solace forever.

But i know I'll work hard, things will get better.
It's 2007- a new year, a fresh new start for me.

I wish for confidence and peace of heart.


Happy New Year,

to everybody and me.

"Never think you're nothing.
Never cry at night over not being pretty enough.
Never tell yourself you'll never be good enough.
Because to someone, you're everything.
To someone, you're gorgeous.
To someone you are the world."
(is this true at all?)