I certainly am dying ....
from stress, anger, fatigue and hopelessness.

My brother has been too disrespectful and extremely disappointing.
I just lashed out at him verbally ( if I rly still had any energy left I would slap him or punch him in the face)... ya... I know i sound so mean & brutally scary, but he really... gets on my nerves.

He never keep his promises.
I forgive him time and again. But he forgets his duties FOREVER.
In the end, I always have to clear up HIS mess.
When he can't find his things ( like uniform), I'm the one responsible.
........

Alryt. I've tried :talking to him and explaining nicely,
1) reminding him not to mess up my room
2) not to dirty the floor
3) to switch off the pc when he goes out
4) to not make MUM angry
....

...
..
but it's NO USE!
he always promises, fails to keep them,
so i scold him (i used to ask nicely),
but u know what's the most maddening thing?

HE TURNS A DEAF EAR!
He gets angry at me.
He watch the tv and ignore me!

In the end, I clean up after/for him.
I lose.
It's my fault.

*BREATHES*
FORGET ABT IT.


Today my work-place actually got burnt down!
I got a shock when i went to work at 9plus as usual,
and the whole outlet was flooded with water and intoxicated with thick amounts of carbon monoxide (soot, ashes

There was alot of commotion( forensic, lawyers, security, cleaners, director, manager, evrybody)
Had to apologise and re-scehdule customers.
Worst was cleaning up the scene..
inhaling the carbon monixide.

I'm just glad I managed to survive till now.

SHOUTS: OH MY GOD~
but i guess I got a great event to write for my SIP journal.

(P/s: I forgot there was a teeny event that brightened up my day...retail therapy for a few minutes after work. Ya... just hold on to the happy events, forget abt the shit.=)

P/p/s: Thanks to Marcus, my supervisor. I got a NEW BLYTHE. Snow white.She's soo adorable and kirei~

and has 2 sets of clothes for transformation. How coool!


Ta-dah, goodnite.

Have to still go back to work tml.....