Tonight, I dun even have the strength to cry myself to sleep anymore.
And I'm sucha loser- i cried in town.public of all public.
Right.

I hate myself for not being able to hold them all back.

I know I'm not the only one.
I know I'm lucky enough.
I know there are people worse off than me.

I no longer can picture happy endings, like the day when we celebrate the end of this whole nightmare.

I don't know if I can hold on to the promise that I'll hang on, and survive till Jan 26.

I am very uncertain that I'll graduate. (If i rly dun, sorry to my parents, poly mates and dearest sweetest girls.)

Fear is now my best friend.

I announce that I'm hereby really really really sorry to everybody- whom I've caused endless of problems, frustrations, confusions, disappointments and heart attacks.


I searched myself.
I've really really really tried my best.

But I know it's not enough.
Maybe I'm rly dumb.hopeless.brainless.
Just take me as this way.
Sorry.

Never have i felt so depressed in my life before.
No way out, no solutions, nobody can help you.
Dead end.

I dun even dare to pray now, cos I figured even God's sick of hearing my prayers.

(ppl, pls dun console me, I'm sick of them. sick of promising tt I'll be strong and I'll try my best... i 'm not even sure of myself anymore.....)