+++__+++My life of decadence.+++_

Friday, October 06, 2006

Tuning on repeat:

Jay Chou & Lara-Shan Hu Hai.

damn.
~~Insomnia.~~
unholy 438am now.
it's weird tat i didn't ve to force myself to slp today.
I was just so shagged tt the body auto went to bed ard 1.
but. woke up at like 2plus....

Here I'am.

And all I could do.All I couldn't try hard not to think,
is miss you.
I hate how the night makes me weak and wayy hollow-empty like this.

But I'm really starting to be stronger I guess. *smiles*
At least the weak times only surface suddenly.
The intensities and frequencies of missing you are diminishing.

Tell me it's over. Let my heart die.

Thou I still need more time... I'm elated to finally understand one thing:
it's not you that i miss.
it's this guy who i loved in the past.
the guy who made me do sillythings.
but still felt like the happiest gal on Earth.
it's the you, when i mattered to you..

SCREW ME.
I SAID I NEED TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS.

to where I'll find the power, to be stronger.

Live better.
Smile wider.
Shine brighter.

Never regr

et

something that once made you [[s m i l e]]

remember the people you meet in life
and never be ashamed to miss them.

if every word i said, could make you laugh--- i'd talk

forever [fullho

use]wait for the boy
who will do anything
just to be your everything.

my biggest mistake wasn't fallign for you;
it was thinking you had fallen for me too.

"it's the simple things in life,
that we never forget.
it's those words,
we wish we never said.
it's the happy endings in fairytales,
we want to have..
and it's those divine memories
we want to rewind and live again."

...lijun. 4:29 AM