Friday, August 11, 2006
what do i do, when memories are tearing me apart?
Oh. Realised I didn't update on my red-n-white National Day!
We had pure-fun.Everything a beautiful memory.
It was shopping n jus spending time with the loveliest bunch of ppl.
Red and white was our ensemble. N we had passers-by waving, shouting,singing happy national day to us. haha! Didn't realise till I read Jing's entry: "We were the only ones who did that." Omg! I think we are quite cool eh. haha.
We go crazy tgt.They dun mind my silliness.They still play along with me!(Is it bcos we are the same?) N most importantly, laugh at my jokes to make me happy.Tat's y I love them la!haha.
Ya. The real reason is because: we have fun tgt.
They dun worry abt me too much..is that also Y i dun take them for granted? I just know that they allow me to be
crazy/embarrassing/moody/loud/silent/gossipy/irritating/overrated.
They allow me to have fun. =))))))
Thx for satisfying my request for Jalan Kayu Prata Nite too.
I'm loved. =)
I noe I'm sucha loser.
I take the dear ppl who are nice to me for granted.The more they are nice to me, the more I feel sorry and guilty. I feel that cos I promised them I'll be happy,sane, fine, alryt, wun cry, live my life beautifully... I've to maintain that image in front of them. Or i'll feel guilty.I feel so bad that they have to worry abt me.And i'm afraid i letthem down.
So the distance from me to them automatically deepens.I'm sucha mess.Yet I'll feel sad too.I wld've been so much weaker n pathetic. I'd already've died from my broken-heart. If you all didn't care abt me.
I'm sorry.rly rly rly sorry.for being lidat. for hurting u all the more by keeping you all away.But i do know u all care. It's heartfelt.
