Sunday, May 28, 2006
Look at me! this is my 3rd/4th entry of the day.hahaWhy? sister is in.So bro dun dare fight wif me for the pc!I love my sis....only one who can read my feelings.Only she can see through my unhappiness.forced smiles.pretence laughter.fake front.Mum, i just hope u can stop shouting and accusing.i'll neva talk back to u. I can only swallow all my tears in.Yes, u taught me how to be strong.i know I am wrong for forgetting my promise, for arguing with bro, but that doesn't mean u can link EVERY thing tgt.ur wrongful assumptions.Did u ever ask me how I feel?I'm so sick of making everyone ard me angry/sad.I'm so useless.I guess u r sick of me now. Isn't it?U dun treat me as nice.U take me for granted.Ur replies get colder.U leave me alone.My first n last sms is no longer by u.U expect me to uds. (tat's y u dun need to express it anymore rite?)Time n agn : I made up my mind to leave u. for gd.to end my pain.I hate myself. I can't do it.I still wish things will go back to the past.But in the end.I'm still a girl.All I need is some assurance.Thou i hide all my fears, insecurities, hurt, and feelings inside.I still pretend and fake the same smile i smiled last time.Can't u see?This is what evrybody's been telling me:This is so common.His treatment of u will change with time rite? He'll care less, bother less...till he no longer feels for u.I need some time to make up my mind.Yes. I 'll b strong.
