I'm the girl-next-door you cannot hear.
The girl whose tiny affection u cannot feel.
The girl who is standing right in front of u but u cannot see.


This is how i feel.
........
"Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found..........
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe."
(From Sia-breathe me)






B'cos I still can't get over myself.
My tendency to hide from every-lil-thing.
My fears. My imperfections.My..everything.
I never want u to see my ugly side, only to regret later.

Happiness.
I've long reckoned happiness shouldn't belong to me.
And never shall.

I m happy enuf watching happy couples from afar.

So it's alright for me to feel a lil empty and blame myself for letting go.
I trust, in the end u will b happier.
smiles.